Me and my crazy-ness

I cant stop laughing at myself today. My own crazy attitude. Went out with my sis and Connie to the Salamanca market this morning, and then the city.. Im planning to buy something today, bcos it's supposingly to be a shopping day to me. There's sooooo many sales now, and everywhere i go, it's a "save more than 50%" banner outside the shop. Stoned. So many sales, that the itch of getting a jacket started in me again. My bad, my bad.. I couldnt control myself when i saw sales.. DO NOT complain. Cos all women are like that. But amazingly, i ended up buying no jacket or clothes. But instead, i spot this shop at the corner of Priceline and Target, and the sign reads "Closing down today. All things must go." hahaha...
and i went in... and saw this, then saw that... and then i bought these, and amazingly, the things inside the shop comes in really cute packaging, and there are all products of france. Kewwt, man!! And for really cheap prices, bcos the shop is closing down obviously. I wanted to get mum a tin of tea, but i ended up putting them back to the shelves. Me too kiamsiap lar =/

And earlier on, i saw from the catalogues at home that Priceline is offering this Johnson Baby Shower gel thing for 50% off, on the 1L per bottle cos it's a clearance product. Since i skipped class on Thursday, so i planned to get 2 bottles today (if there's still any) just for stock-up. It's worth AUD11.48 per bottle before the sales (In Msia, it's RM23 per bottle) and after the sales, it's AUD5.75!!! So i grab 2 bottles off the shelves and went to pay. After the cashier scan the price, it showed AUD 3.90!!!!!!!!! 2 bucks cheaper again. So my sis grab another 2 bottles, and we ended up with 4 bottles altogether. Connie went and grab 4 bottles too! Cos, according to her, this thing dont have expiry date so it's worth buying, and yet it's damn cheap lor!! And after she (Connie) paid for her 4 bottles, she told me there's only 2 more bottles left and that i should buy those as well. So i went in and take those 2 too!! Ahahaha... I cant stop laughing. They are heavy to be carried home, but they are so damn cheap lor.... So now i got freaking 6 bottles of Johnson Baby shower gel *gloats* I phoned my mum to flood her with the news. And she says im siao *sweat* It means im crazy, and she suggest i shall stop studying and just sell the shower gel outside my house. Ahahahha... My mum's a real comic!

And the house meeting tonight. A gathering of housemates to voice out opinions, and the distributing of some cleaning schedule. Hahaha.... We're all seated at the dining table. Victor, me, my sis, Kevin, Bala, Ambrose, CK, Alex, Eric, and Raymond (Yes, i got so many housemates).. Everything went well.. until something arose....

Alex: You ppl got what things to say or not?
.... Everybody shakes their head......
Alex: (Looking at me) You ppl got anything unhappy can say out lor, dont keep in the heart.
Me: (Stare back at him) Har?? Im very happy living here. No unhappy.

Bahahahha.. Everyone starts laughing. I must have been an idiot to say such things.

And after some laughing, the talk goes on... until something arose again....

Alex and Victor suggest that we rent the vacuum from Woolworths to get our carpet cleaned using some sort of antiseptic. Okay, and so we all agreed, but Ambrose suddenly came up with some nonsense which i forgotten is what, but it means carrying the whole huge vacuum home. And CK scolded him "ni hen wu liao, jiang jiang duo fei hua"...

And *swoooooshh* a crow flies over. Ahahaha... I did the action with my hand underneath the table. And my sis cant stop laughing. Im pretty sure no one saw me cos i did that with my hand underneath the table. But alas!! Alex saw it and he cant stop laughing..... And yeah, luckily he just laughed by himself, without saying out what he saw. And everyone thought he's an idiot!! hahahaha.... PSst.... My bad!!

And the bad side of me was that i couldnt stand the sight of Kevin that i wanted to shout right at his face for his damn "chuen" answer and gave him a slap right in the face, and then kick him hard at the part that hurts him the most cos i so very much wanted him to disappear right off this house! BAH!! I didnt do that. I promised baybee that i will control myself cos all these are none of my business! Patience is a virtue, ignorance is bliss! Bless u!

Rainy Thursday

It's been too long since i last blog. Too long since there's some happening in my life worth blogging about. Too long that i've forgotten what's the last post i blogged. Shame, total shame.

I skipped class today. The class at clinical school. Im not motivated to go to class. I stayed in bed the whole day. It's raining. Call me lazy as u like. It doesnt bother me cos im alone. Im negative. There's no one in my life at all.

I especially like rainy day today. Just today. Not other day. There's some raindrops on my windows and i just want to waste my time away looking at them. I live without direction in life.

Im going to spend some time reading novels and listening to soothing songs like JiaLi suggested, flipping through the bible like Jason suggested, doing puzzles to storm my brain, watching movies, and reconstructing my life. I pretty much need some holiday times now. Maybe just a day or two would be fine already. Excluding weekends of cos.

I miss shopping. Shopping makes me happy. Not window shopping. Shower me with some dollar bills then i can go shopping-crazy. Shopping. It destroys me.

"What nourishes me also destroys me" - SiewKhiung.

I like that phrase. And i like that person to bits.

Going figures

Im going figures with all the calculations i have to do for my analytical chemistry. Sigh, and for those who knows me really well, they know how much i HATE calculations, especially in chemistry!!! Pfft~~~
So stress, so stress, so stress.... It's only the beginning of the semester and im already so stress... Gosh!!
Baybee is not feeling too good today. Im so afraid of chatting with him, afraid of disturbing him, and spoiling his mood even more. Sigh sigh sigh.... Sien diao!!

But baybee dear, i've got something to tell you. These things are those that you told me when im being so stressed in my studies. You tell me to look to the future, think of the future and dont look back to the past. You already try your best and you worked hard enough, so im sure everything will be alrite. Take things slowly, step-by-step, and dont rush with the times...

I know these are all comforting words, which i dont know if it works for you or not, but i want you to know that, im here supporting you all the time. If you need times to be alone, you can tell me so. I dont want to see you so unhappy, becos it made me unhappy too. I'd do anything just to see you happy. The magical smile that u gave brightens up everyone's day, including mine...
Wish u best of lucks!! I think that's the best i can do other than keeping you in my prayers every night.. *HugS*

Children's story book - Part 2

The continuation from the previous post - Children's story book =)

And after the process of the boy and girl hugging, kissing, lying down on the bed, the baby (you) forms and grows in the tummy of the girl.

After u grow for some times, it's time to go to the clinic/ hospital!! Ehehehe... And u lie down with the boy and doctor beside u. Yes, guys should ALWAYS be beside their wife during delivery, from my opinion.

ANd now... Then naughty you climbs out from the "hole" into the world.... Tata~~

And there~~~~~~ A happy family. Papa, Mama, and baby =)

PS: Having a baby is not as easy as u think. Carrying a growing baby inside your tummy for 9 months is not an easy thing to do either. Having a baby have so many consequences that it means risking your wife's life to give u a flesh and blood. So guys, accompany your wife into the delivery room, and supporting her all through the process is what you should be doing. Dont just complain of this and that all the time. Love her all the time if you choose to be with her. And, having a baby involves both parents. Not just either one. And if u choose to have one, love him/her!!

Children's story book

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Does anyone of you asked your parents how you came to this world when you're young? And then you put all the embarassment on them becos they do not know how to answer you? We read storybooks when we're young, from Cinderella to Sleeping Beauty to Peter Pan. This is Malaysia's children story books. How 'bout reading a few pages from Germany's children story books? Hehehe... I know most of you have seen this from the forward mail. But i find it quite cute.. yes, C U T E in its way of teaching children how they came to this world o.O

A baby was born into this world. And he/she grew up to bcome a young man/ girl. Boy meets girl thingy.. Ahaha

And the rest of the story is up to your imagination. Ahaha...

Bah!! I think i can only upload till here.... The photo uploader stops working after this 3 pictures... But anyway... the girl gets pregnant and out you came to the world. Ahahaha.... Cheers~

Freaky Friday

It's friday today. Fast. Super fast, man!! Already started school for a week...

Im still feeling a bit lagging however. Seems to be rushing for time. I miss home a lot suddenly. Im home-sick. Sigh.. The feeling is so bad that im thinking of running home...

I wanted to do some revision thingy tonight but somehow it seems like my brain's dying out on me tonite. If i were to start revising tmrw, then i need to make sure i did extra hours to make up for the few hours i lost today..

Im thinking of a summer paper this year. But there aint any science paper for summer. What the heck! I chatted with Lydia last nite, and both of us are facing the same things.. So we work out that we'd be taking summer paper instead of going home.. She'd be taking statistics for summer but what should i take? Sigh.. Hopefully there's entrepreneurship for summer. Then i can do some catch up. God bless!

Im currently listening What's Left of me by Nick Lachey. Former member of 98 degrees. Baybee mentioned this song to me last nite, cos in fact he's a big fan of 98 degrees. Im thinking of getting this new album for baybee but well, he got the song already. Technology. Incredibly fast. Click and download. Anyway, check out the song. Nice =)

Edgy

Im being edgy again today..

Happy bcos i passed my Medical Microbiology and Immunology mid year exam. Eventhough it's just on the borderline, but at least i make it. Im contented for that. I hope it's gonna be a good start for me.

Then i came home and calculated my marks. TOO near to the borderline. Then i started to frown again. I felt so confuse. Dont know if i should be glad for my marks or not. I started to think that i wont be able to make it again. I bcome Miss Pessimistic once more.

I called Baybee. He's having a meeting. So i hung up and went for dinner.

Cooked my so-called "maggie goreng". Taste quite okay on the first try. It looks delicious too. But the more i eat, the saltier it bcame. Stoned. Bit my upper lips. No idea how i did that. Normally if someone eats too greedily, it's either the side of the mouth gets bitten, or the lower lips. I wonder how i bit the upper lips. It hurts.... *sobs*

A lot of frens chat with me in msn tonite.. they are still concern about wut im going through. Friends. I love them *smiles* I feel better after talking. Thanks to Fynn, Rene, and Albert.

There's a point when a stupid thought crosses my mind. I tot baybee got a new girl already. Bcos he wasnt treating me too nice at a stage. He wasnt keen in talking to me on the phone. And it makes me feel sad. I thought i will lose him sooner or later

Im hearing the song "ru guo ni hai ai wo" (translate: if you still love me) by Guang Liang (Michael) repeatly over and over again these 2 days.. And it makes me think and think and think... if u still love me, u wouldnt let me wait here all by myself.... this sort of sad lyrics....

I read back my previous post about how happy i've been. And now i know, everything have two sides. The good and the bad. The happy and the sad. You are the one who mould your own happiness. Not the people around you. It all depends on how u look at your life.

Blue blue day

Today's definitely not a good day for me. A very bad one in fact. Despite everytime i complained of how hard my life is over here, the way i live frugally over here, everything seems so unfair to me over here, or how lonely i felt all the time, today's the first time that i wish i could end my life once and for all! I know im Miss Pessimistic, but this thought have been running over and over in my head since this morning...

And up until now... and moments before i took my dinner just now, im actually considering which methods would be the better one. Geez. Can anyone tell me?

I can see no future in myself. If that's the case, there's no point why i continue living here and being a burden to everyone around me. Life is so hard, so why not end it?

I snuggled up under my blanket and have a long long cry since i came back from class. I cannot see any open route towards what im facing. My heart felt so heavy that it feels like sunking right through to the bottom, and out of my body. I felt really helpless. I wanted to drown myself in the tub. I seriously want to.

I think that's a lot better than going insane and still living, and at the same time being a burden to ppl around u. Make sense rite? Why not end all the misery?

Talking about misery... I felt so lonely, alone in misery. Hou san fu... can hardly breathe. My current song addiction is Mr. Lonely cos it pictures me in a relatively good way 'cept that im Miss Lonely. Yes i am. I've got no one but all alone, on a stranded island.

Thanks a lot to those msn frens who spend some times chatting with me and finding out wut happens to me. Well, i cant exactly say out what's wrong in myself, or tells you exactly what happens, but i truly do appreciate the attention from you all.. Jason says it's bcos of depression. Depression is caused by loneliness. Then you hear inner voices, and you bcome uncertain in your own world. You dont know what to do and what not to do. I think that makes up what im facing. But it sounds kinda like a psychotic case to me. Lol.. His suggestion was that i should go out and talk to people, instead of locking myself in my own cage. Yes, i need people in my life. But im not a socialize-able kind of person. So someone help me pls.. Talk to me!

Baybee gave me a hug today. A hug that i need the most despite of every other things. I sink into his arms and i started crying again. Very pathetic u think? No no.. Though it's a all-in-msn thingy, but i felt his hug, and i really cried when im wrapped in his arms. Bcos i need him.

That's what i need the most now. Being wrapped around his arm and have a good cry.

I feel so dehydrated now. I know i will continue crying myself to sleep tonight. I know crying does not solve any problems but that's the best i can do now, other than jumping out of my room window *touchwood* It's the same like guys going to the bar to get drunk when they face problems. So blame me not. I've been a crybaby for since God knows when.

Dont ask me what i need to cheer myself up. I just need you...

Brother's birthday

Almost forgotten that my dearest baby brother turned 11 today =) *gives you a big warm hug*
I miss him quite a lot, especially his playfulness. Tho sometimes he gets quite cheeky and bad, but i still love him all the same. Despite all those scoldings he gets from me, i love having a brother like him.

So a quick happy birthday msg from er jie to you, dear! Hope you had a great one. I knew u celebrated it last nite, with dad and mum =) I wish i was there as well. Hehehe... The traditional redwine chicken soup with mushrooms and meesua... *drools* Dont snatch mushroom with me anymore when i go back ah! Or else i drink finish all your soup. Lol... Miss you heaps!

Happy Birthday to you,
You were born in the zoo,
With the monkeys and tigers,
Happy birthday to you.....

*Hugs*

Picture shows, from left, Daddy, Brother, and Mummy, in a Gondola Ride (Cable Car) in Christchurch, New Zealand. It's obviously snowing outside!

Monday Blues

Having monday blues today

Cos today's a monday

DUH......

Very very lame, i know

Life will be hard again from today onwards

School started today. Semester 2, 2006.

Very stoned.

Will be running about uni on monday, wednesday, and thursday EVERY single week from 9am to 6pm.

What the heck...

They thought i was a robot.

But i wasnt. Wont be one in the future either.

Went for analytical chemistry prac today.

The new girl (Carmen) says she feels dizzy, after Greg has JUST started to explain the apparatus. But hey, that's only the beginning towards a long journey. I seriously pitied her *shrugs*

I loathe chemistry prac. Very much. Analytical chem is no exception. Hate analytical more than others.

Anthony spelled it as Anal chem for short. I was laughing when i saw it. Hehehe... Doesnt Anal means ASS?? Goodness me, i got nothing better to do!

'nuff of updates for today. Couldnt wake up this morning, and now im feeling like a dead fish. But i got biochem studies to do. Till here.

PS: Baybee, i miss you a lot... a lot....

Full of thoughts

Im full of thoughts tonight. There's so many things that i need to make a decision for. So many thinking to do. How can i cope with it all alone? Im full of thoughts..

I watched "I not stupid 2" during the holidays, and i learnt this:
"You're not finished if you lose, but you're finished if you quit"
I wanted to apply this to my life a lot, bcos i've been struggling in a quite a few things now.. BUT im worried of what the future might holds for me.. Sigh, so many thoughts! I dont want to quit half way, i dont want to give up yet, but there's so many things to consider *frowns*

And then came this, from a friend:
不要回头看，不要担心未来，努力的过好每一天 (translated: dont look into the past, do not worry about the future, but work hard to live life to the fullest everyday)
It makes sense too. But how can you not worry about the future? How can you not look into the past? The past makes u grow up and learn, the future lets you make better plans now. What should i do? Someone pls give me some opinionS. Very much appreciated!!

Maybe i worried too much in life, or i always have too much to think! Being someone who always cant make up her mind, i've been a big burden to my parents. Now im passing the worrying-disease to them. Im not a good daughter *sobs*

Have a look around you before you complain about anything. So many people are worse than you.
I know and i understand.. But i just cant seems to stop complaining.. Why is my life so baddddddddd!!!! ARGHhh

And then lastly, i found this from my previous blog:
In order to excel you must have passion for your job. It's the passion that would make your work extraordinary
Passion means sth like interest. I know i need to have interest in the things i do, but seriously, i dont know what's my own interest. I dont know if i have passion for the things that i did.

I can sense that im finished soon, even if i dont quit. Sigh.....

Too much enjoying

I looked back to the few of my previous post during the holidays. I've been complaining of bored, too much time, then go yumcha, go shopping, go walk walk... but WHAT THE HECK (!!!!) i think i've enjoyed too much of myself. Now it's time to get back to study :'( I wanted to cry a lot. All things seems to be down on my side. Have been damn suay since last nite. Should have taken that as some sort of a sign. Failed my pharmacology. Sunny day suddenly bcomes a rainy day. Why must You do that to me!! Im thinking of withdrawing myself from uni. I seriously dont want to study anymore :'( I dont know what i should do with my life next...

Need to start studying for my supp paper now. So damn freaked out! Why, why, why!!! The exams seem so easy but the result all came out as shit. Exactly shit!! I really dont know why... Tell me why!!!! Has the marking scheme changed or what? Somebody tell me lar!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn annoyed now. Dont bother me for the next few days if u saw me online in msn! And i mean seriously dont bother me! I've been in a mood swing recently, being edgy all the time. Additionally, from the results that i got now, and a late AV, i got no guarantee if i can control my temper anytime in the next few days.. or weeks... or MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yum Cha Frenzy

Went out yumcha with Iry today. Yeslor, only 2 of us lor.. hou hor lin hai mai?? But i kinda enjoy myself =) Going out with her was truly fun and definitely NOT bored.. Unlike going out with others, i can actually keep myself quiet for the whole trip. Lol... As usual we met at the sandy bay bus stop. This time 'round, i was late, cos i reluctantly delayed some times on the bed tho i woke up early. Ehehe... Then we took a bus to the city. Iry wanted to get a battery charger (power cord) for her laptop, so we walked around searching for the computer shop. After some times, we found it opposite "Spotlight" and when we went in, we were served by a bald middle-aged man (a chinese) but too bad they did not have one that's suitable for Dell. He introduced us to a shop which he called it "J computers" but when we asked for the direction, he told us the shop's in Kingston or Moonah (which is sooooo far from the city). Iry asked him for the shop's name, and he spelled it as "J-J-A-Y sth sth computers" and he even offered to look for the details (phone num) for us! He's so friendly to his customer =) So we browse around the shop while he search for it. After around 5 minutes he came with a paper and we thanks him then left.. After we walked to the bus stop, then only we realise he didnt write the name of the shop on the paper and he did not indicate which shop was at Kingston and which was in Moonah (LOL!!!)....

Next we took a bus to North Hobart (some en route to Moonah) cos i wanted to go Chinese Emporium for some grocceries before uni reopen (desperately need to stack up my shelves).. So after buying my things, we asked around on where the computer shop is, and to our amazement, it's nowhere around! Must have been fooled. So we took a bus and went back to city. On the way, we stop-by SensAsian for our yumcha session. Ordered a Bo Chi Fan with chicken and chinese sausage (rice cooked in the claypot) and we shared them together. Yummy yummy! It's really nice =) And then ordered 3 more dimsum, Lor Bak Gou, Siew Mai, and Har Gau.. and of cos it comes with chinese tea lor.. Ehehe... Was so full when we finished the food. BURPPPPPPP... and well, it only cost us AUD 15.65 pp =) Iry suggest that we went to look for Officeworks (a big warehouse that sells really cheap stationaries) after we went back to city, and so i said ok. Cos neither one of us wanted to go home yet (being home alone is a real bored things to do!).

After we reach the city, we wasnt sure which area Officeworks is located, but i rmber Emmeline told me that it should be around the church. So we head towards the church and started to straight up the road. Until we reach ToyWorld! So far up from city... and when we decided to give up, Iry says that she's gonna asked for direction from the staff.. After being told where to go, we left, and i wanted to get a coke, so we went into a shop at a junction. And i asked from the cashier again the direction. The old grandma was soooooooo friendly in teaching me the direction, but it's the total opposite way told previously! *Sweat* Two kids lost in hobart city (!!!)... We decided to follow the previous direction, and in less than 3 minutes of walking, we finally found Officeworks!!!! Bahahahahh *Evil Laugh* Thanks goodness i didnt follow the grandma's direction! =P

After Officeworks we went to DickSmith for Iry's laptop battery charger. And yea, they offered her one (one that's suitable for various brands of laptops, with change-able heads) but it cost AUD 199.95!!!!!!!! So i suggest her to walk around and think properly first whether she really wants to get it. And well, we went back for it! And then it's time to go home.... Home sweet home =)

I got a tired day out, but an enjoying one. At least i need not lock myself in my room for another day. Tmrw will be the day when im sure i will have insomnia. Cos results will be released the next day. And i hope for a pass in all subjects lor, God bless! If not then please give me a supp! I'd work super hard for that i promise.

Other than that, i wanted to change a new laptop. I want a Fujitsu laptop sooo much cos my Asus laptop Dvd-rom stop working already. I guess it is resting in peace now. It makes me feel so delirious! Goodness!! And cos i wanted a change.. hehehe... Can only wish upon the stars, cos no one's going to buy me one... Sigh (!)

Time for some egg-dinner (the eggs in my fridge are expiring. Need to eat them up tonite) So tata~ Back soon

26th Monthsary

Me and Baybee celebrated our 26th monthsary today - 8th July 2006. It's a wonder how time flies.. It's already the 26th month together =)

Love you to bits, baybee dear! Muacks

McDonald job application

I went out with Iry today. So much fun!!! She's bored at home too, so we need not walk in a rush, or having our hearts put at home! Lol... We met at the bus stop around 11:15am, and then took a bus to Salamanca Market =) First time i like walking the market sooooo much, maybe cos staying at home really bored the hell outta me!! So i drag along the market in a really slooooooow speed! ehehe... Those youngsters that walked behind me must have been really annoyed! =P And so we walked the whole of salamanca, from the beginning till the end. Then we had Pork Barstwurst Sizzling sausage bun for lunch. So huge, that i almost puke when i finish eating it... Lol.. I bought a belly-ring in the market for 15bucks, and im loving it soooo much!! Ehehehe!!! Dont know when can i wear it, since im hardly out during the holidays... Next, i saw this white "pom-pom" jacket which i like too, but doesnt have my size =( They only got a S (which is obviously too small for me) and an XL (which is way too big!!).. so then we went to city next....

And McDonald!!!!!! The notice says "Now Hiring, Full/Part-Time Crew, Ask a manager for application, Immediate work"... So, i queue up, and bought myself a coke, then ask for the application form.. Ehehehe!!! She gave us 2 forms (one for me, one for Iry) and ask us to fill it up and bring in asap. So we find a nearby table and spend 30minutes filling it in! Cos there's a part which is hard to fill. Lol.. "State 3 interesting facts about yourself".. And Iry says it's even tougher than an exam! I agree! Lol.. And after we hand in the form, we went shooooooooping!! But hey, i bought nothing, other than a bday card for my brother, a "Cars" book for baby, and a kakura puzzle book for myself =) I can spend my holidays now.. ehehehhe

I wanted to get a jacket so much, but those that caught my eyes were so damn pricey!! And those cheaper one were really cheap in material also!! Sigh.... Now's very "in" for clothes with strips, and i saw damn many of those.. But would it get out-of-fashion fast? I think so hey!! Hmmm...

Origami

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Love doing origami these 2 days. It kills my time, though badly hurt my fingers sometimes. Too much of a folding i think.





Those that i did in these 2 days. Lined up on my laptop. Pretty? I like 'em!!







Im going to salamanca and city tmrw with Iry. Would be applying for the job at McD at the same time. Tmrw's the 8th. Me and Baybee's monthsary. Hopefully it brings me luck lorrr... ehehe! Im not superstitious. Im just me. Aha! Till here~

Short of blogging mood

Short of some mood to blog. Nothing to blog about. Dont feel like blogging. That's holidays.. Nothing to update. Every single thing irritates me. Signs of PMS (hehe!!)

Pardon me not. Im still looking for job. Though it's already past one week of holiday, and only 2 weeks left. I need money desperately now. Sigh, brother's birthday is just around the corner and i feel bad for not able to get him anything!! He's been really good, saying that a postcard or a card is enuff, but i seriously dont wanna treat him that way. I must get him something.

I passed-by the city's McDonald the other day and saw that it is hiring a full-time /part-time worker now. Immediate work =) I'd be trying out on that! Hopefully i get the job, since being an asian lowers the opportunity. Sigh!

Results will be released next week. Thinking of it makes me worry big times, and worrying gives me insomnia. Goodness me! Im hard to please in some way. Seriously do pray for a pass in all subjects. God bless me.....

Uni will reopen soon enuff. Time to get back to school already. Time for lectures already. Does that mean enough of slacking? Dang! That reminds me, i got presentation and projects due in August!!! And i havent found the shadow to my research... Goodness me! I must stop watching drama and get prepared already..

Other than that, i miss Subway!! The foot-long sweet onion teriyaki honey oat bun. So long for a bun's name, but im drooling at the thought of it. I think i have to go Sandy Bay for a Subway bun tmrw. Ehehehe!!! And i miss HungryJack's flame grilled chicken burgers. The flame grilled whopper's not bad too! Oh no!! So many foods, it decrease the effect of my gym's workout *smirk*

I know this is another of a random post.. What to do? Im really out of things to blog, at the point that my life during this holiday really sucks big time! Till here for now. Will log on again pretty soon. Gotto go for sweet dreams now. Baybee's already waiting for me on the bed! Aha! Nitez nitez!

World Cup 2006

It's already near the finals of the game and i just started to blog about it! Ehe! That's becos i got itch in the ass just recently about the world cup. Ahahaha... No no, i dont bet on the ballS (i've been good!).. I just tend to glue myself in front of the laptop throughout these holidays watching the world cup games. Weird times you know? 1am and 5am Aussie time.. So imagine my life now.. Ehe!! Tho sometimes i fall asleep during the games, but at least i make the "effort" to watch the games...

I used to think that football doesnt make sense. 12 ppl chasing after a ball in the field. What's so fun about it? Seriously i dont know. And i havent found the answer now. Just that i found it fun and exciting watching it. Ahaha!! Having your heart leap out when the players almost scored a goal and scream your heart out when they really scored a goal! Bah! Nonsense.... Watching football alone is damn kelian, man!! But what to do? I cant possible mix with my housemates and watch together. That's a big NO-NO to me. I'd rather get my beauty sleep. ehehe....

Other than that, my holidays have been a really really really DULL one. Wake up, on the laptop, watch drama, played some games, and sleep.. Other than the few necessary breaks.... my goodness!! I really need a life!!!!!! Zzzzzzz

A day out

Had a day out with Emmeline tonight. Gosh, out to the city at 10:30am, and back at 11:30am!!! FAST isnt it? Really fast until i dont even have time to do my fave things, SHOPPING!!! LOL... She just went to Medibank to renew her card, and then i stop by BodyShop to buy a body butter. Seriously, that's it!!

Then on the way home, we stop-by HungryJack to have our lunch. It's a drive-through shop, and there's hell many ppl.. I have to wait around 20minutes for my foods to come. After lunch, we walked home =) Today has got very nice weather, abit of sun and a bit wind (It's 5 degrees C today)..

Then we went to International Student Office (ISO) becos of her medibank's thingy. She paid for the service but didnt get a renewal. So, after quite some times at the ISO, the receptionist told her that she indeed paid renewal fees LAST year, but the univ did not process it, and they only do processing stuffs on Monday. Today's Tuesday, so she got to wait until next week to get the whole thing processed! Lol!! How bad can a uni service be right? What if she doesnt went to Medibank today? Her A$342 will definitely goes to the uni just like that!!
Warning: Never ever pay your Medibank (Overseas student health cover insurance) through Uni. You'd never know when it happens to you... It doesnt harm much to take a bus ride to city to pay for the renewal fees right?! Till here for now.. Getting a bit tired.. Hah! Age is wearing me down =P

I wish it's a right one

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I wish i've made the right choice. I seriously dont know what is right and what is wrong, and whether what i've done is the right one. I regret telling you what i've told you, and i regret for hurting you so badly. But i know what's said cannot be un-said. I wish to find the strength to go on.. God, can You show me the way?
I break my own heart through my own work and now i can only blame myself for being so lonely again... If crying could make me feel better, i would be crying the river now.. If death could end all misery, why am i still here? I dont understand all the regrets in life.