Rainy Thursday

It's been too long since i last blog. Too long since there's some happening in my life worth blogging about. Too long that i've forgotten what's the last post i blogged. Shame, total shame.

I skipped class today. The class at clinical school. Im not motivated to go to class. I stayed in bed the whole day. It's raining. Call me lazy as u like. It doesnt bother me cos im alone. Im negative. There's no one in my life at all.

I especially like rainy day today. Just today. Not other day. There's some raindrops on my windows and i just want to waste my time away looking at them. I live without direction in life.

Im going to spend some time reading novels and listening to soothing songs like JiaLi suggested, flipping through the bible like Jason suggested, doing puzzles to storm my brain, watching movies, and reconstructing my life. I pretty much need some holiday times now. Maybe just a day or two would be fine already. Excluding weekends of cos.

I miss shopping. Shopping makes me happy. Not window shopping. Shower me with some dollar bills then i can go shopping-crazy. Shopping. It destroys me.

"What nourishes me also destroys me" - SiewKhiung.

I like that phrase. And i like that person to bits.