Edgy

Im being edgy again today..

Happy bcos i passed my Medical Microbiology and Immunology mid year exam. Eventhough it's just on the borderline, but at least i make it. Im contented for that. I hope it's gonna be a good start for me.

Then i came home and calculated my marks. TOO near to the borderline. Then i started to frown again. I felt so confuse. Dont know if i should be glad for my marks or not. I started to think that i wont be able to make it again. I bcome Miss Pessimistic once more.

I called Baybee. He's having a meeting. So i hung up and went for dinner.

Cooked my so-called "maggie goreng". Taste quite okay on the first try. It looks delicious too. But the more i eat, the saltier it bcame. Stoned. Bit my upper lips. No idea how i did that. Normally if someone eats too greedily, it's either the side of the mouth gets bitten, or the lower lips. I wonder how i bit the upper lips. It hurts.... *sobs*

A lot of frens chat with me in msn tonite.. they are still concern about wut im going through. Friends. I love them *smiles* I feel better after talking. Thanks to Fynn, Rene, and Albert.

There's a point when a stupid thought crosses my mind. I tot baybee got a new girl already. Bcos he wasnt treating me too nice at a stage. He wasnt keen in talking to me on the phone. And it makes me feel sad. I thought i will lose him sooner or later

Im hearing the song "ru guo ni hai ai wo" (translate: if you still love me) by Guang Liang (Michael) repeatly over and over again these 2 days.. And it makes me think and think and think... if u still love me, u wouldnt let me wait here all by myself.... this sort of sad lyrics....

I read back my previous post about how happy i've been. And now i know, everything have two sides. The good and the bad. The happy and the sad. You are the one who mould your own happiness. Not the people around you. It all depends on how u look at your life.