ToRtuReD

I'm being tortured!!!!

Ran the threadmill for 1.5 hours straight today -______- then 45 mins yoga -______-""

I have a monster personal trainer >:



Im feeling like a jellyfish now




Tsk tsk! I went into the sauna & steaming room after my yoga class and realised it's for unisex.. so steaming-ly HOT!! :p *wink*
But i have this thing popping in my mind ALL the time while im in there, getting hot and steaming with baybee in there -___- hahahaha... now..... nothing's wrong right? :p

My chatbox is back!!!!!!!!

Hahahahha........

Because.....

LOL!!

碰上这种男人 你可以嫁了

JWen showed me this article last night, and ask "eih, your boyfriend is it like this one?"

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I wish loh... hahaha :P at least half of these i also happy liao -___-""

有点害羞，但曾在分别街头，大声说我爱你。

拥抱很久，很紧——每次你起身时几乎是需要慢慢推开他

朦胧醒来轻呼你的名字——没有呼错。

记得你的生日，鞋号，密码，最怕的事。

笑起来很像个坏蛋——其实不是。

不舒服时，请假带你去看医生，回来路上买冰淇淋作奖励。

雨天散步背你过积水，说：你还可以再胖一些啊。

帮你做家务，每天，边做边聊天。

吵嘴时不会一走了之。

阅读女士脱毛器的说明书然后教你怎么用。

常常说，有我呢。

告诉你——24小时随时打电话给他。

说谎时结巴。

送你的花是盆花，替你浇水。

比你高，你取不到的东西让他取。but dont call me a shorty afterwards -__-

重大的事情和你商量，比如明年的投资计划，周末野餐带不带烧烤架，晚上吃大白菜 还是小白菜。

在商店的洗手间外面等你。

你感冒了，他还是会用你的杯子喝水。

喜欢你，从未犹豫，从不把你和别的女人比较。

对女人有风度，也有距离。

和他在一起不怕死——也不害怕活下去…… :D :D :D *beams*


oh oh.... and one more
























和大人在一起像大人，和孩子在一起像孩子，和狗在一起像狗。


WTF~~

-________-"

I |0v3 Y0u

"如果我爱上一个人，我会时时刻刻思念着他，就算不能见面也没有关系，只要他同样牵　挂着我，我就心满意足了。"



Is it really that simple? I wonder~

GyM

I hit the gym today. I'm determined to make it my daily routine... at least for now. Everyone knows how long im gonna last. hahaha...



I told my personal trainer i want a new body for the summer.. ahhaha... i wanna go to the beaches with bikinis.... LOL.........

and she said she's gonna change a new PT for me... crap! :p


Anyway.... finger crosses for now but let's see how long im gonna stay determined! :p

Hope and Faith

Hope hope hope, faith faith faith.


I am really hoping for some good news when i open my eyes tmrw morning. It's 2:20am now, Melbourne time. And im going to sleep after this. And i want to hear good news tmrw.

Cos if not, my life's gonna be totally wasted and i do not know my directions anymore. So God, please, give me a direction and show me what to do. Amen.


:D

Goodnite!

Just when i thought we were at the dead ends

Just when i thought our r/ships got no more turning back, just when everything seems so sour and just when nothing each of us done seems right for the other.....

i saw the rainbow at the far end :D

I've been really really down these days with some personal issue.. good mood is not on my list at all. Everything i do seems wrong. i know, depression and stuff. It's just far beyond words. Down-est of the down-est. LOL.

But, thank you baybee for treating me so good :D you wouldn't know how much it actually meant to me, especially at these moments of my life. Thank you, for making this r/ships having another new start (hopefully!). I wish this would never end. Time would just stand still and you would treat me forever like this. :D


p/s: Im NOT pms-ing! Just feeling edgy or having mood swings but totally unrelated to PMS okay??

p/s/s: I'm waiting for that time to come, when u would send me to work in the morning, and pick me up in the evening, going back to our cosy little home :D *crosses fingers* i really wish this day would come..

depression

i think im already at the terminal stage for some kind of depression. sigh.



any medicine?



bcos.........





even suicide is on my mind now -_______________-

a new turnover :)

Im glad bad things are coming to an end. Im glad things are changing for the better now :) Im glad mummy is smiling and laughing again. Im just sooo glad she's able to laugh at my lame jokes again :D Thanks God!

With such things occurring now and then at home, it really freaks me out everytime my handphone rang and the screen shows "withheld" or "private number". I dont know why. I just don't. I got a private number call this morning at 4am Melbourne time, and thought it was just baybee noticing me that he's reached home from movies, but the phone keep ringing and i just gotta pick it up. And im covered in sweats and thousands of things flashed through my mind when i heard it's mummy's voice at the other end. I sat up straight in bed and was really lost in thoughts.

It happens that mummy got a private number call too and she thought it was me calling her -__- and daddy asked her to call back and "check on our little girl".. HAHAHAHA.... my heart's smiling right now cos i feel so loved :P and mysteriously, i woke up this morning to 3 private numbers missed call. It's really spooky cos it wasn't baybee and when i called back home, daddy said they didnt call another time after realising im safe and sound and still whole. haha :P

Anyway..... the past few days has been really dull for me. Still waiting for interviews from other company. Still waiting for the notice from Sydney. I called and asked them but mummy said i'm so loso (long-winded) hahaha.. I just need the job desperately mah.. and Karen and Connie asked me to call and ask, to show some sincerity. haha :P

Alrite... baybee turned 23! Another year older. Time to start a family. Time to get into the bed and get it moving. HAHAHAHA :P

You gave me a sleepless night on the eve of your birthday

How could you do this to me?!


I knew it was your birthday today and you probably wanna celebrate the "counting down" with your friends and colleagues last night but how could you put me aside and let me have a sleepless night?


Could you possibly sleep well, not knowing where your other half is, what he/she is doing, what time he/she would be back?

Could you have not wake up every hour to check on your phone, to see if he/she has called or left a message? (Same thing as waking up every hour to check on the empty space beside you)

Could you possibly have a peaceful night, not thinking of this and that?


Especially when you like hanging out so often these days and drink like mad even when you know you need to drive home?

Especially when i asked you to let me know once you reached home, safe and sound.



Especially when you knew all along, that i am waiting for you but could not tell you so, because you're going to tell me hurtful words ie i'm locking you up by waiting for you (yeah i know it's very wtf)


How could you ever do this to me. Just one phone call is enough to put me into deep sleep but is it just that hard?


Anyway, if these panda eyes of mine really gave you some fun times and happiness last night, then i guess it's worth it.


Happy Birthday! <3

:'(

this is so not good.



*pray*

I wish there were more moments like this

where i can look so "mini" :p

Busted

My phone bill last month came up with a freaking total of AUD173.95!!!!!!!!!!



Now now... should i rob Commonwealth Bank or ANZ Bank?? Sigh!!!!

I made you a cookie but i eated it

Hehehe

An unfamiliar place

I was here alone, in a crowded place with not even one familiar face. For 2 days. And i survived.

:D


Wandering on these streets aren't easy. Standing at the traffic light junctions, i did not do what the locals did. Instead, i just stand still... and watch the world goes by.


Cuzzie Connie said "the San i knew was long gone. U've really grown up to be a brave girl now. Im so proud of u".

Was that because this time round, i really traveled alone?


I dont know.. i wish i was as brave as what u guys think.

But i get jelly legs when i went in the lab this morning after the interview. ROoms and RoOms of blood... T.T

Evident that i am no brave girl...

I love the standard time

and im glad daylight savings end already.
I gained another hour :D but it's all crap since i dont need that extra hour to rush for assignments now. haha.. anybody rushing for assignments or studying for exams that need that one extra hour? haahhaha....


anyway... i still dont get it why they can just add another hour or take away another hour just like that.

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I went shopping yesterday, for some officewear -_______- i felt really old, y'know? Just like Suddenly 30! I get that feel now. Sigh...
All bcos mummy said i need to give people a good first impression, sort of like i am the working type! Ahaha..

But like usual, i ended up buying other stuffs. Dont worry.. i did not overspent.. cos i just manage to grab a Aud3 denim skirts! Ahahaha.... good savings! :p

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Oh... i've removed that chatbox due to some personal reason. hah!

如果

如果，我 瘦一点，你会爱我多一点吗？

如果，我漂亮一点，你会爱我多一点吗？

Seeing you frail makes me want to be strong for you

Through the good,
through the bad,
Whether in glory,
or in the sad,
Through sickness
and through health,
Always have,
Always will.

I will be here for you.








And i want to be here...... for you.


get well soon <3

心痛，真的比什么都难受。

April fool's day is a happy day :D

cos i got a phone call from Australian Red Cross Blood Service this morning asking me for an interview loh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And i was so nervous and happy i did not ask where is the place -_________- stoned or not you say lah....

And then i called my mum saying i got an interview next wed, and she's like more nervous than me... ahahaha....



I swear this is not an april fool joke :D