The day before a new beginning

Uni's starting tmrw. First day of the first semester in a final year of uni. I know i just gotta work extra hard this time. Twice the work i've done before.

Everyone's coming back today. I get to see so many familiar faces in this once a quiet island. But everything doesnt seems to be like how i want it to be. Im feeling so strange and awkward and uncomfortable around these people. Has the time drifted us apart? I looked for amelia today, and she's like my new friend. Felt better with her around. But i gotta face up with the truth.

I dont know what will tmrw be like. I dont know what i would be saying to friends around me tmrw. Other than the few greetings? Sigh...

As im typing away this, im drown in some confusing thoughts. Everything is so emotional around me. Listening to Tank's zhuan shu tian shi doesnt make me feel any better. Baybee has been drunk in his own world of mahjong (or whatever shits) since like forever. If someone were to ask him "what's your gf name?" now, he'd need like a few minutes to gain his consiousness before answering. It's so pathetic i know. But i've lost the attention i once used to get.

I've tried this before. Being abandoned for no reason (or perhaps there is a reason.. i just dont live up to it) and when u gain your consiousness, it's all too late. i dont like this feeling. i seriously doesnt like it, and i do not want to re-live my past.

yes... i rmber...... im gonna be a new me. Im just soooo not going to live like this.


~*Regina is feeling a sense of loneliness*
~*Regina is listening to TANK - zhuan shu tian shi*